2008-10-10
almost, is almost nothing
Its been a week of 5am bedtimes and missed lunches/breakfast times. Plus ham sandwiches three meals a day (i like ham and cheese :) ) and 2am fruit breaks.
Slept from 10 to 5 today, on a friday afternoon, when the sun is actually out and smiling at us because essay submission was today and i spent the last night watching the sunrise from the window of the computer lab willing my fingers to keep referencing and editing. I can feel my individual cells start to go to sleep as i type this (if thats even possible) but i REFUSE to sleep my friday night away!
about 4 weeks more and then im home. And i think its just sunk in that im actually going to be here for 4 years. (many many sleepless nights) its also starting to sink in how its time to grow up. Why do we have to bear the worries of the world when we've barely even lived much.
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Like a shell, a facade.
the greens and reds dont glaze our eyes
shack, alarm and despair
distance, solitude and silence
when empathy becomes permanent.
I wish it was all just sympathy,
havent lived it all.
dont want to.
ladedaz at 9:01 p.m.